..In Pursuit Of My Future..

Prom Night..its a night where senior students of a school spent their last special night with their friends, teachers and other senior..One night, one last stand..Everything was perfect and special, thanks to the planners who plan this party..I've been in SMSS for nearly 5 months now, since i left My former school Menglait..And ive been lucky to have ticket and went there with Quini Arantxa..My bestfriend and also a sis of mine, we go through our ups and downs..But here we are, still as close hehe :)..Love you babe! haha..She was the most beautiful girl that night, im so lucky..Thanks Quini for being my date..I had my own personal reasons to bring you with me..

The Party was funtastic, such a blast..haha, I danced with Quini, dance like my dad did in the 70s..haha, the dinner was alright, all the foods were all nyummy especially the rounded bread!haha..There was many photographers, felt like a celeb that night..haha, nada lah..and the dj was good..And the place: Jerudong Polo club, ROAYAL BERKSHIRE baybe!!tickets were $38 each, since im bringing Quini $76 alltogether..was it worth it?Hell Yea!!every cents was worth it..

Also, i wore a tux that night, my tux coolour:black with stripe grey and my pants:black with blue stripe..Not a good combination tho, well next time we'll see again hehe..Well ofcourse i had to wear one cause the party theme was Glamourous Night..Everything had to be in glamour..haha

It was a night to remember!and it meant so much for all of us, especially form 5 students..

Its Sunday, 1st November 2009..and next month would be the last month in 2009..Time happens quickly, it feels like 2009 happened in just a split of a second...Times happens so quickly, and so much had happened to me this year..and i feel like im half alive, but i promise you guys im gonna make it in one piece and alive.. Pheww, cant believe its November, feels like i missed a lot.. tho, i feel like 2009 is a disaster for me..making mistakes and all..but i dont feel like talking much about it.

Anyways, its been 4 days since i left her..and i got over her :), took me a short time huh?not like me..well it is me, guess i undertand much sudh..about this life..I went through a lot of heart breaks already, but there's a catch to it tho..I learn more and prepared..beside "Understanding such pain enables you to more kind to others"..I feel like its time to grow up and start thinking positive about things and thinking deeply on things..Done the deeply part, but not the postive part..Time to be more mature..anyways, i heard some about her, and am sad at first but now im okay with it..all i can say "semoga bahagia sampai ke anak cucu" :)i hope he will be there for you always, watching over you, lending you strength when you not feeling strong :) ..and for me, lets see what november or future holds for me..What im destined for..Right now, let me be patient but patient doesn't mean that im weak(Quini's)..Im not proud of what ive done in the past but i am proud of who i am now..And im Trying to be better, stronger and faster..Better myself and improve.

Been also motionless today, means im not showing a slight of emotions..No smile to be exact..it means im serious, and im not thinking about anything..I feel weird about it ..Tho, tdi jalan skajap sama dad..around gadong but not at mall..I saw a car next to us, like 10 meteres away, it stopped..then i saw a bunch of wild dogs infront a=of the car..as we pass by and have the glimps to see those dogs..ifirs i saw a dogs head on top of a dog..then as i looke down slightly..i laughed, coz i saw a couple in the car, and the girl was laughing so i look more towards the dogs..and i loled,..They were having a funtime, female and male..With the male having their toung out..DOGGIE, DOGGIE!haha lol..thankx to the dogs that made me laughed tadi..

Anyways, i hope November brings me luck and happiness always, Amin!..Let see whats instored for me. - Bahzi

I want to thank you to my friends that was with me yesterday and today..helping me getting up from my knees..Wiah help a lot on this *thnx wiah!, also my sister Quini and my bestie from 4B Menglait Myzah..also thnx to yum, aqim, hafidz(my neighbours) ...I appreciate it so much guys, love you all for helping me ..I guess im okay, but its gonna get me a lifetime to really moved on..i love her so much and i still do.

Also to Quini, your such a sweetheart dear..posting me in her blog :) <3 love you my sister from another mother and father..hehe

Tosay had been a nightmare for me, i woke up early in the morning and i feel a slight pain or ache in the head..I ignored it..woke up and straight to shower, and i feel my ache getting worster and worster..So in my head was a migrain ache strikes me, maybe when i was a sleep..So after shower went to get my uniform, and told my mum am having a migrain..She looks worried, but yea it was physics test yesterday paper one and two..so i put my migarin aside..wore my uniform, and went down to the kitchen..then i felt a bit sick, decided not to eat..5 mins later, went to my bathroom and puke!mahn, u dont want to puke in the morning where your stomach is empty..Its torturing in the brain, eyes and in the stomach..so told my mum i puke, and i decided to stay at home..coz theres no way i could beat my migrain, it hurts so badly..

Reminds me of my mid year exam :/ (in menglait) , where i gave up on my physics paper coz i had migrain..Out of 11 pages i answered only two...it also reminds me of SMSS Monthly test on physics, where i missed it due to migrain.. im moody about this and is it just a coincidence? or is it something else..A part of my downfall this year, is my migrain problems.. :/ , im sad about this..i wish theres is a cure to migrain :/..i hate this..I got my mc, and im gonna have my test nanti :/ ..pheww! sucks?isn it?..i blame myself for this, i listened to my skullcandy for 2 hours while asleep..at its max volume, i couldnt help myself to listen..foolish me

TOnight, guess what?i broke up with Iza..the reason?let it be untold..i dont want to hurt anybody here..I do love her, so much..But by her decision, & what she done..I was sad, so many things went through my mind that night, i decided to end it and i did..dont take me for granted guys coz i have my own good reasons to it..i dont want to say much..All i can is her lost and my gain..Usually when it comes to things like this ill type a thousand words about it..this time, i dont think so..i got nothing to lose and i got nothing to win..and it wont bring her back to me..I guess, my heart is broken so many times now that i cant really feel a thing about this..But all i can do is just be PATIENT but patient doesnt mean that i am weak..for now, let it be

Alright, its Wednesday and its 3 more days until xam..Pheww, *pressured..My mum went to Singapore yesterday -.- ..she just got back from uk and now Singapore lagi..im missing her so much :/ i miss her cooking..And its also had been 3 weeks since my sis left Brunei for UK in Exeter..i am now feel the huge impact of her leaving..The house feels so dull without her..Everything is changing, Seasons are changing..Now its just me and my two younger brothers..

I feel pressured right now, i have my responsibilities to them..Taking care of them.. :/ ..I miss my sis a lot..She's so beautiful in everyway..She's my sweetheart and i cant hope to see her in sadness there..In starvation..I feel like crying right now..im such a sissy..I know this a faze that i have to get through..I know she is more challenged there, without my wonder women (my Mum)..But i also know what she is capable of..I know that she is tough..3 weeks have passed and she looks so happy there..Buying dozen of shoes, sandal and boots :') haha..as predicted second day there she went shopping for her wardrobe..She's cute alright :')

Here are pictures from my lappy :), the belows are from izzat's Nikon Dslr and the photographer of that day Fared..Just your normal class vaining day :) more pictures on my lappy, but so tired to upload them all..this is all :)

Finally, the moment ive been waiting for 2 weeks..SKULLCANDIES!!huhu, my mum just got back from UK sending my older sis, ka jikah..She's in Exeter now..So yeah, my mum just got back and now i have an additional two skullcandies..Adding to my older ones the hesh type..this time my mum got me a rasta G.I. and a lowrider..Just the type that im looking for..i thought my mum just bought me one, but turns out a surprise an additional of another different kind..My mum knows me well, i always carry around my mp3..Listening to music 25% of everyday of my life..Im a music addict.

About G.i. Rasta:
No soldier on record has ever lost a battle while wearing the G.I. headphones. Ever.

• Speaker Diameter: 40mm
• Magnet Type: NdFeB
• Frequency range: 18 -20K Hz
• Impedance: 50 ohms
• Max Input Power: 400mw
• Cable Type: Aluminum Braided
• Cable Length: 1.2m
• Plug Type: 3.5mm Gold Plated

Accessories: Emergency Bottle Opener, Extender Cable, Interchangeable Ear Pads, Satin Travel Bag, 6.3mm Gold Plated Adapter

59.99 pounds.

About Lowrider:

You always say, "...when we cross that bridge..." Are you referring metaphorically to consumption, the bridge between creation and destruction? If so, you should buy a dozen colors of Lowrider headphones right away. Your wardrobe needs candy paint to match all those sneakers. Don't be slippin'.29.79pounds

Finally i got these two..

MY older hesh type:

Fisticuffs with the boss could potentially be confused by some at the office as a sign of insubordination. Vigorous dancing on his desk with exotic facial contortions and frequent airborne double-bird fist pumping hand gestures while wearing Hesh headphones is probably a more diplomatic way of saying, "Leave me alone so I can rock again."

• Speaker Diameter: 50mm
• Magnet Type: NdFeB
• Frequency range: 18 -20K Hz
• Impedance: 32 ohms
• Max Input Power: 100mw
• Cable Type: Nylon Braided
• Cable Length: 1.2m
• Plug Type: 3.5mm Gold Plated

Now since i owe my mum B$250, -.- ..she asked me to pay..haha, but to me 250 is so worth it..Skullcandies is crushing my skulls..i feel banged up and slammed by these mean machines..i love it!haha :P anyways im looking forward to my next badge set of skullcandies, im ordering the "Full Metal Jacket" and "Viking Hesh"..probably next year when i go to uk again..