..In Pursuit Of My Future..

First of all sorry for the delay its now 12.03, past midnight..Was going to publish this today, but its already Tuesday, nevermind its still looks like night outside..Ofcourse it is, haha..okay back to the topic, tonight(yesterday -.-)PiP u-16 defeated NBT fc 2-1, NBT is a club currently participating on the most elite level in Brunei, The B-League..yes, they are well trained and all of them are skilled..Man they're so good..

Today(i mean yesterday)Me and my teammates face the biggest challenge of our life so far..Up against NBT, they're fast and well experienced, more experienced than PiP(for sure)..They dominate the first half, the ball was in their possession all the time, but we put up a great defend strategy, Im the right defend..Btw i was the youngest in the field today, my teammates are all 16 above and im the only one fifteen playing for the first eleven..though i got sent off coz my right ankle has a bruise on it, couldn't walk properly..haha..First half, NBT managed to give a score on us..im not surprised, they had so many chances..

But somehow we managed to make a comeback and scored twice by our strikers Zaim and Han, good job guys!..This win we had today, is the biggest win so far..Defeating our own kind, bigge, better and stronger..i need to record this coz its a huge step to mmy life in football..An u-16 PiP defeated NBT..A big win for us, and Pip image and pride is at its up!haha..Not saying NBT isnt good, Their GREAT!!and put up a great fight to PiP..I was nervous and kinda shakky at first half..A big round of applause for them..

Today, we earn NBT's respect..And im happy for that, im going to smile before i sleep this morning, its already morning btw..haha..I just neverthought we can beat, it never crossed my mind..All i think was at least they defeat us with scores 2 to nil..But we did defeat them, Like what Gerard always says "impossible is nothing"..This is the quote for today..haha..and i good compliments from both of my coach that I improved so well..But i still need to improve more and sharpen myself..i have selection for U-16 and u-15 to Thailand and Sabah..im thrilled, for what has happened today im excited and thrilled..But I NEED TO GET UP ON MY STUDIES!!

But it wasnt my own will that made me play good for today, i keep thinking of somebody faces, people close to me..Thats what keeps my heads up..Proving them, but its not enough..My best today wasnt enough ..For me its not, evntho supporters tadi says that i played great..Its still not..

Its morning already and i havent sleep yet, Last..I respect NBT, they were really great..Thanx to NBT-ians today, thay put up a great fight..okay, im off now~

Things haven't really gone easy on me this past weeks..So much has happened this year, i mean SO much..With my absentee lately due to my migrain and some other physical problem..Now im still feeling tired about yesterday match..Because of that match i end up getting cuts and bruises on my knees, its weird..And my neck is killing me right now..Physically im not in a good shape..yea, a bit moody about that..

Also results of our midyear exam, me and mclassmates didnt really do well in it..Our results were Horrofying ..We blew it..Again..Tho we may have reasons for this..Our teachers were really dissapointed in us, we let them down..Im kinda sad about that, We could of done better..Sorry teachers!..Now im not in the mood..Me and my classmate have the most caring and loving teachers out there whos best interest is to better us in both education and personal issue..Damn! we blew it..Im so sad myself right now for the dissapointment we gave to our teachers ans also ourself..But i want to say my congrats to my classmate Faralisa for managing to pass Bio and physics..Congrats dear!so proud of you..And thankyou! at least theres always that person that lights the class up, at least not all of us blew it..Good job fara!!wish we all did great~

Kinda down abit today, pressure are on so many sides..Im still struggling altho my best is given yet..With my condition like this its hard to give my 100%..kinda sad tadi..But thanks To Quini Arantxa, as she managed to give me a smile tadi..She upload a video on her blog to cheer me up..It was a funny and kinda touching vid..but it did work, it made me smile..Thank you so much quini!!theres always that special person that understands and give you the inspiration when youre down and when you need it the most..So, i thank you quini and also myzah, azzah and wana..Love you guys..Also enjoyed my chat tadi with Azzah~

I know this is all a challenge given by Allah..I just have to be patient and just accept it with my full heart..So ill do my best on handling all of this..

im off to sleep now..bye~

Woke up this 6.45 this morning, OMG school!!..There i go again missing one day of school..Well i was really tired from my match yesterday against Temburong(pip vs temburong)damn it was a tide..I didn't know why, we were weak yesterday..For some reason, me and my teammates was all weak and feeling tired..There must be some reason for this..We were visiting temburong, so it wasn't our place there..It feeks like something was with them..We never usually have this type of prob..I was having chills and cold on my body when i was playing against them..Weird..Yeah, so after the match i went back with my parents, the rest in speedboat!!!!damn speedboat was fun!All of us went to Temburong using a speedboat..It was fun and memorable..the sense of togetherness was felt, it felt great..Going through river channels, every second of it was a fun and thrill..well thats the feeling of being in a team and it supposed to be that way..but i didnt join the speedboat with them going back..My parents insisted on supporting me and going to temburong..BAD IDEA!!..there was a traffic and a long que on the way to miri!!damn we went home at 9.15..I was really tired ..This leads to my absentice this morning..

Sorry its not much tho~

Thursday, 4th June 2009 marks the day of the first in 3 yrs..Bahzi and Safwana happen..Last night, we had a chat and that feeling just came and i said to her, "We have known each other for quite a time now, honestly how do you want our relationship to be?"..That was the start, and so it happen..Its offical Bahzi <3 Safwana ..Icant explains the feelings im having now..But this morning i woke up and i smiled..All i could think of right now is her..You dont know how wide my smile is right now..I feel alive and energetic because of her..Feels like my body is on steroid..hehe~


-Bahzi, Love you Wana.


Thnx to quini, farhan and mizah~
Quini thankx for that congrats in your blog, appreciate it~