..In Pursuit Of My Future..

Today Brunei u-15 Squad is gonna face China, Over the years brunei had never won against China..Looking from this years China players, no wonder Brunei never defeated them They're huge and tall..Even me, they look down at me..Darn!! haha..Brunei is physically challenge by China, due to physical advantages..

I packed all the football gear that i required and all..My weapon of choice that day was Adidas +F50.9 tunit..SInce it has done a lot of good deeds to me..Everythings packed, and me, the squad and coaches entered the bus and there we go..Heading off..I took a sit and then blast my head with my skullcandy, i was really fired up, i was listening songs that reminds me of Menglait..Mahn I was really emo tadi, but at same time it feels like all hell inside me was gonna break loose..Was really bruning..

So i said to myself, "so what if Brunei never win against China, theyre physically tough, and Brunei is mentally strong"..Looked around me, all of my teammate was really fired up..Then i said to my self "This isnt a game anymore, its a battle, all my hell is gonna break lose so are my teammates"..

Reach our destination..we exit the bus and theres this feeling again, the feeling of calmness but at the same time hungry, the feeling of adrenalin rushing to your body..up and down in our bodies..Went to the locker room, and wear our gears.and our weapons of choice..Went to the field and this is it..

"forget the years that has passed, the history of Brunei and China, this is us this year..and were going to made history"our captain said that, in malay..haha..Brunei fist eleven and also china's entered the field..and this is it..wisell blowned and its the start..Mahn i was really nervous, being a first eleven is really tough..

As the 90 mins reached, brunei 3-0 Chine..Brunei won for the first time against china..We managed to win, Brunei team u-15 of 2009 made history, the first won against china..China may have physical advantage, but Brunei that time was really fired up, mentally strong and was really high spirited.."kecil-kecil cili padi"hehe, thats Brunei we may be small compared to many countries..But we bite hard...Just as a small chilli that looks harmless, but just as you bite it..youll get the sting.

Got back from hostel near nursing in the evening tadi aroun 6.30..Spent a night there yesterday, on Saturday night..yea, after my first day in SMSS and first day as an ex-menglait-ian..Exhausting and damn stressful..

But i went to the hostel late since i didnt come to training in the afternoon, it was Saturday afternoon btw and in the night me and me family went to my cousin's one year old birthday party..Happy Birthday Ayan!! :/ but i stayed for two hours saja and i had to go to hostel back at 10 pm, while my family stayed up until 1 am :/..phew!, i need a break, i need a kit kat :D

But yea, football is kinda in the way right now, it burdens me and maybe its best if i quit and back off for the u-15..but football is in my blood, and i want to achieve another goal, that is being in a national team again, being a representative for Brunei in football, it would be benefit me in football, gaining expereience..Standing, and wearing Brunei logo, fighting, in a war for our national flag..it would be such a thrill and also meeting other players from varies countries..ISKI KU EYH!haha

Came to the hostel and we went wild at hostel like normal boys do, did crazy things..Really craz..you dont want to know what we did but ill tell you guys what we did after the football competition ends..And stayed up late until it was 5 pm..and we went to bed, then i heard knocking on the door, my coach saying "training"..FU*K, one hour sleep..we got up and ready things and of to jogging at 6.30 around gadong area tadi morning..really exhausting, my head was heavy..i should have just sleep early like two of my teammates, altogether theres 20..haha~

Were going to Sabah 10th August, next monday..this means only 4 days of studying in SMSS then im off to Sabah..So were gonna stay there for 10days, going to miss school lessons again..Football in the way..Pheww!going to hard times now..but ill still hang on and never give up..tomorrow is my second day in SMSS..im off to sleep~

Yesterday, 1st August 2009 (Saturday)..I stand in SMSS..it was weird, two days ago i stand in Menglait..I've spent 3 years and 8 months as a Menglait-ian..But now im officialy a SMSS-ians, and and and also still officialy a Menglait-ian, get me? its fine if doesnt make sene, ill make sense to it.. So, as soon as i stand there in SMSS, everything was different..Just name it, ill show that it was different..Everything guys, from the people here to the class to the school bell..Im not going to name everything, its going to be long if i do..When i first inroduced and step in to my class 4 science A..It was weird, new faces..It was like im stuck in both worlds but im getting the best of both wworls..This class is going to be my home..I know it aint going to be that easy, im entering a hard framed picture..But i do know what i have to do..

My first day went well, met dozens of my friends from the past(ex-sunshines), PiP-ians..And also made new friends there..It was fun, i didnt have to like introduce myself, friends there did it to me and introduced me to others..SMSS-ians was very welcoming..Had few people camed up to me..This lessens the weight of adapting, thanks SMSS-ians :) im getting the best of bost worlds.

Im still holding on guys, dont worry to much about me..Im here and im still standing..No touchy words for tonight, just the old same saying "i miss you guys so much" ..peace..