..In Pursuit Of My Future..

Before I start on this, to the 4b-ians in Menglait Secondary School..Get your Armor!..Tomorrow will be the start of a new chapter in my life, the start of something new, the start of a new story..Story of in Seri Mulia Sarjana School..

But im not going to write about SMSS tonight..I have to give my respect to my friends and teachers in Menglait..People who i look up to, people who looks after me, friends that spends their time with me, stories we've made together, people who i create the past with and most of all people who i love and care without any boundaries..Classmates, friends and teachers, these are the people who i would risk my own life to save, saving them by all means even if it cost my dearly life..You Menglait-ians are my true love and my whole world..These are my reasons guys;

As you guys know, im the type of guy which his emotions gets the best of him, it conquers me..Ive hurt you guys my fellow 4b-ians more than twice now and im sorry for that, from the bottom of my heart im really am..i know you guys forgave me for that a long time ago but i didnt forgive my self you guys are my whole world, my true love twice is enough for me, even if theres a very good reason for it..i cant hope to see you guys get hurt again..Ive seen enough of your sadness and sorrow, as much as i once hurt you guys, i was feeling thrice the damage..Every now and then i havent really been concentrating much on my studies, its because i keep thinking to my self that you all are my sweetheart and i cant make you feel the sorrow..This feeling of wanting to take great care of you guys, the feeling to make sure everything is alright..it has got me, i look around the class everyday, every lessons, i see people with big hearts, people with passion, people with a bright future ahead of them..My 4b-ians and 3a-ians..i know that i dont really show my sadness and sorrow, but im used to smiling although my heart is crying out loud..

Im falling guys, i thought in the first place i was falling from the height of six feets but i was wrong..i was falling from the top of the Eiffel tower..i can get up from a six feet fall, but from a tower, im sorry guys..i cant..guess im not that strong an athletic as u guys think i am..I tried to reach up high, get on my knees, holding on..but im still falling, im failing guys!even a blind man could see it..im failing..Great leaders in the past, Alexander the Great, Achilles, Hercules, Julius Caesars..They all reach high and high, built great empires, buildings..But you know what?Still, they fall..its just that, this is a big fall im going through..and one which im not sure i can get up..Sorry guys, this time no surprises..i know this reason for you guys is unacceptable, but im just an ordinary human..Sorry!

My attendance is also not as it used to, i had been absent for most of the weeks..My condition back then wasnt really that great..i was unfit due to some complications with my health..Its classified

So i made a decision, a choice..The biggest choice in my life so far.. i made a choice to transfer school, yes guys..it was my own decision..Its for the best, for me and you guys..i know, coz im slowing you guys down more and more each day..i dont to be held responsible for it..i love you guys so much..And that fire of love isnt going to fade as i move..it has just turned into a blaze..

The damage has been done, we cant change the past nor predict the future, were humans..The damage has been done, and i dont want you guys to blame on anybody, the problem is me..i care too much, i think to much..Im turning to a weaker, more emotional Bahzi, my weakness is that i care to much..I guess u can call me BaZzielah..hehe, but this is me guys..What changed me is something i want to figure out..

Im sorry to teachers and sirs in Menglait, specialy my class teachers, ex-teachersand current teachers who are teaching me, To my class teacher..Teach Nurul Ida, I love u so much, im sorry that i couldnt stay, im so sorry that i cant be that student you wanted me too, ive tried my best and im sorry that the best wast enough.. i know now what i have to do, i cant predict the future nor change the past, what i do know is that i can learn from my mistakes..Ill be alright ;)

Im not moving because Menglait is not good enough, coz Menglait is the best secondary school out there..Teachers there gives the best quality teaching and Menglait results had been great..Actually i feel like one of the luckiest students outhere to have met such great teachers

Why SMSS?Its because theres a lot of my friends there..Ex-Sunshine-ians, PiP-ians.. it would make my adaptation to another world easier..plus my younger brother is also there..I hope things would go well and accordingly and also a change of luck maybe great..

This is my promise to my fellow Menglait-ians;

No matter where i go, u guys are reamins in my heart forever..you guys are one of the best memories in the chapter of my story,

" whats mine is yours to leave or take whats mine is yours to make your own",

Ill be there for you guys through it all,

AND! ill remain that anoyying kid, emotional person, class athlete, that ladies men phewwittt!!, rude, pervert haha, dumbass, the guy who dissapear :/(kidding)..i dont exactly know in which ways or how you guys would remember me..but ill promise to myself and you guys, that ill still be that guy who you guys think i am, the bad things, the nice things about me that you learned to love..ill still be that guy..Except maybe better in the future.. i hope so!

Im so madly inlove with you guys, i love you guys more than my own life, im obsessed :D haha..i hope you guys would accept my reason and accept the fact that im leaving with great patient..Aww, dont cry 4b-ians girls!im still here in Brunei..Its not like were a hundred kilometers away, its just less than 10 kilometers..haha!ill be okay guys :) though my skies are turning grey..i know what i have to do, adapting situation..i know i can deal with it..Dont worry!i promise ill be okay..Guess tomorrow im heading of to the world, all i just want is you guys to know who youre friend is as he heads off to the world.

"dont cry for somebody who wont cry for you", im sure you guys know whos this is for

Thanx for reading this lame post guys..

<3 Bahzi