..In Pursuit Of My Future..

When i got back to school tadi, it was around 12.30, i looked around on my orchids..And guess what?!!one of my orchid finally blooms..It a wild orchid, spider orchid..I bought my orchids in January last year, im really intto orchids..Im kinda fascinated on them..wild ones, it looks so magnificent..It so darn beautiful and at the same time it has this wild personality, it reminds of me sometimes..

I bought it in KL last year, bought 5 other types of these wild spider orchids..And from that point on i have been taking care of it, a very intensive care, giving it fertilisers cutting its withered leaves and all..When i bought it it was just this small plant, where the only thins seen is just its less than 5 centimeters leaves..So yeah, did intensive care for like 15 months, then i stopped seems like the flower doesnt wanna grow.

So i left it uncared for like 5 months, i didnt take a look on it or what so ever, the flower didnt grew so yeah, i was really frustrated about it, all those inensive cares..is it like throwing salt on to the sea?..Lately last few weeks ive been really moody and emo and all..Everything seems to fall apart..and im breaking down..

So yea tadi, i decide to look around my house, and as i stumbled on my orchids, these group of orchids of mine, then there it is..A flower blooming, one of my orchid finally grew its flower, and damn it blooms really beautiful..Its My Purple Orchid..

Its kinda weird, wild orchids needs a really good intensive care but tadi, it didnt even need my care and all..it just bloom there out of nowhere..Its kinda weird that my orchid just bloomed, in this time of the year..This year has been a really emotional year for me, with what happening around..and yea, i feel down oftenly..Emo and all..

Is this orchid a sign, it feels like its telling me to bloom twice..I was really emo when i saw the flowers blooming..someway, this feeling..wanting to better myself like i used too..but am i gonna bloom again?this year has been really hard for me..it seems like darker days will live in me..

In ways that is hard to explain..I should bloom twice this year, all those dark days, its time to give colour in to it..it feels like a signal fire for me to outshine again.. :')