..In Pursuit Of My Future..

After the incident happened last Saturday, My form teacher finally settled it down..Me and the ones involved was called..My teacher ask us to talk as adult and tried telling what our flaws were to each other..But my friend that was involved said that there wasn't any problem with me, but one of them said that sometime i brag a little but he said it wasn't really a big deal..What happened in the English room was just to play around a bit..But in a way it did seriously hurt me..I was offended by it...

But in the end of the day, even they said that there wasn't any reason for it, they didn't had anything against me, what happened last Thursday was just a joke or whatsoever ..I tried to understand why they did it..Everything happens for a reason rite?..So i told them, maybe I'm not really to close with them in a way..I'm always with my ex classmate (girls)..I'm not really always around them..Or whatsoever..Then i gave good reasons for all of the above..I told them a why, the reasons..

It was because, in a way my ex classmate knows me better, we can cooperate and they understands me..The reason for me not always around them in breaktime or whatsoever was because sometimes my work are not 100% finish, and sometimes rather than talking to my classmate i talk to my exclassmate, i told them that i miss my ex- classmate, My form 3 classmates are very important to me and i love them dearly and i dont want them to forget me bcoz theyre a part of my life so, its hard for me to be forgotten just like that, but i told them i also love this class, i don't want to be anywhere else, and also i love my classmate right now..I told all of this and they seemed to understand it..

Huge mistakes was made when i first entered the class, i went to Paris and UK for holiday and i was missing a week of class, this was a bad thing for me and my friends..Because when i entered the class My classmate(guys)already formed a bond, a bond of friendship in between, that was a bad thing for me because when i entered they see me as new student, a new face in their pictures..That's when it all started, i also didn't joined the dancing for National Day because i was late but all of my classmate(boys) joined it.. This was the worst thing that could happen on my first term because theyre bonds were becoming more tighter in the process, while i was getting nowhere closer to them...this was the start of a harsh friendship..

Lastly, i told them what was going through around me.. that adapting isn't my thing, i dont go with the flow..Especially i DONT let go of the past and the people who were around me easily..It was too detail and i am tired right now..But i also told them that im not giving up, im still struglling to connect with them and be a part of their bonds, but I told them ill try the best i can..So the result was them managing to understand me and hopefully them knowing me as a good friend And mostly, them appreciating me for what im struglling..Next, my teacher also gave me this useful advice and it was really a good advice, i learned from it so much, and i took them..In the end, this all was satisfying for me..Them getting to know me better, sparks in us was cooled down and me learning things from my form teacher..

Today lesson is, When your down and struggling and having this problems, Theirs always a friend to understand the situation ...My mistake the other day was approaching them, but not in a healthy way..I followed my emotions, rather then thinking in a positive way..I made a big mistake, and they didn't tried to understand me..This what sparks me inside..But, my biggest mistake was didn't gave them a chance to understand me, and i didn't told them whats going through around me..Hopefully, i won't repeat the same mistake, it really hurts..Today's lesson is To connect with the people around you, we must first let them understand us, show our true colour to them.. This s my story for today..Last, Hope the people who are reading this would learned from my mistakes and never to repeat it.."We learned from Our Mistakes"..This is the reason we learn history in the first place..Rite?